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Hey guys! My name's Zaki or Zak, whichever you prefer. I'm 20 and I live in NYC, the Bronx specifically. I work at UNIQLO as a slave and um... Yeah, if you want to know anything, just ask :) I'm really cool.

I got sooo drunk yesterday :(

I can’t really remember what happened but I consumed either four or five 22oz. bottles of Budweiser. That’s a lot in my opinion… When I got home, I was going crazy! I opened my door, took off my jacket, sat on the couch and then threw up on the carpet. Previous to that, I threw up on the stairs at the train station. Someone asked me if they wanted me to call an ambulance and I said no.

Well anyway, after I threw up all over my carpet, I walked to the bathroom and just started taking off all my clothes and just jumped in the shower. I figured it’d help if I took a nice hot shower. I didn’t even dry myself off when I got out. I just walked to my bed and passed out naked. My mom and my sister eventually came home and saw me passed out naked on my bed and my mom just started yelling at me. The clothes on the floor and the fact that I was passed out naked. Thank God she didn’t see the throw up…

That night was not fun. I don’t like the way I get when I’m drunk. I can’t remember much but I hope I didn’t say/call/text anyone anything… I had a lot running through my mind between the two guys that I like… I hope I didn’t say anything :(

I miss him…

Why am I such a fuck up with my life though? I have no means to do anything with myself. Like, I know what I wanna do in life but I’m just always so fuckin’ exhausted that I don’t take care about important shit like my financial aid -___-

I’m fuckin’ tired of trying to find someone!

I always just end up getting hurt. “Let’s just have sex.” “I think you’re hot but I don’t think I want a relationship. Wanna have sex?” FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m fuckin’ tired of having sex with people. I want a fuckin’ RELATIONSHIP!

I’m need a haircut BUT…

I want something that’s going to make me look a bit older and bit on the professional side, yet stylish… I’m not sure what I should do :/ And I really don’t feel like shaving it all off again.

Well… I’m stuck in a rut…

I like four different guys! One specifically above all but I don’t feel like my chances exist with him… Then there’s my fuck buddy that I kind of like. Then there’s this guy I’m talking to. And then today, I hooked up with this guy and he’s REALLYYYYY cute. We didn’t have sex, we just messed around but afterwards, we just sat around, listening to music, he was telling me about his family, and he asked me out. He’s from Puerto Rico and he has a thick Hispanic accent but it’s sooo cute and sometimes he doesn’t know how to say something in English but luckily I know some Spanish to help me out. Lol. But yeah, he’s really sweet and has this amazing smile. Fuck my life!!!! Why can’t I just like one person at a time?????????? 

I just don’t know what to do… I’m stuck. I really wish I could try things out with that one specific guy but I don’t think it’s a wise idea nor do I think he’s interested :/ *sigh*

My post about…

Seeing a guy’s dick through what he wears has THE MOST notes I’ve ever gotten. Lmao. Ya’ll is some horndogs. I love it :P

I just created a Twitter…

Don’t know how I feel about it yet but I’m giving it a try. Haha. Maybe you guys can help me figure this thing out :P